Note to Reader: You may skip this unnecessary, bitchy, ranting, venting post :)

I've been complaining like crazy about how bored i am at work, how i have nothing to do, blah blah..but i'm done with that. here's to being more appreciative of what i have. after all, it's better pay, great benefits, and the work environment is pleasant. BUT not after i say everything on my mind.

first of all, the coordinator i work under is the nicest person but she has some annoying ass tendencies. she freaks out and stresses over EVERYTHING. she's sooo meticulous she has fuckin post its and tabs on EVERYTHING. and i dont think they help because when i ask her something, she still doesnt know where to find it. i understand she's new too, but she has 2 more months than i do and she's still lost. most of the time we have to backtrack because she didnt do something...like she forgot to finish the paperwork that should have been done during the damn patient visit. why wouldnt you do it then?? every day i ask her the same shit, "what can i do to help?" im tired of asking her because she never has anything for me to do, she'd rather do it herself. she also NEVER communicates with me. im always updating her if i get new labs, reports, etc. but she NEVER lets me know what's going on and i always have to ask her whats the status on this and this and this. so everyday i look like an idiot working hard to look busy when really im sitting around staring at my computer. i feel so useless, like im wasting my time and their money. i feel like my boss hates me because she'll catch me texting or something. whenever i do have something to do, i take my time and work like a snail on purpose. UGH, so annoying. i get so frustrated and upset i feel like crying at work every day.

so this got me thinking...either she's a poor leader or im too much of a leader. maybe its the "ASB" in me that likes to be in charge, likes to feel responsible, likes to feel important. overall i think im a good leader and know how to work with others. it's not that i don't take direction well, but im all about efficiency and accuracy and she definitely is focused more on getting organized than doin the damn thing.

i KNOW im a good worker so give me something to work on!


ok, im done :)

Election 2008

Tonight, the first Black President was elected: Barack Obama. Incredible :)

seriously?

wow, it's november and the holidays are just around the corner! i had a peppermint white mocha to start off the holiday season (which by the way the dorky dude made a big deal because they now put mint chocolate swirls instead of red sprinkles on them) and to welcome the refreshing cold weather. whenever its chilly out i remember berkeley and so in some strange way the cold is kinda comforting. crazy, i know.

work is confusing. im getting paid more to do less. something i shouldnt complain about but i get so bored! i kinda miss the organized mess i had going on at my old job. crazy, i know.

if it's one thing i cherish about my friendships, it has to be the fact that no matter how long it's been we all understand how busy life can be and we can still come together with no hard feelings. i recently gchatted with sherlyn and realized we haven't spoke in pretty much 2 months besides the quick gchat/emails. crazy, i know.

things have been pretty wonderful lately. id definitely take a homemade picture slideshow video over a gucci purse any day. crazy, i KNOW!